This evening I came home from work with a mind full from work. I took some time to talk to my kids and ask them how their day went and one by one they went down the line of every detail they could remember. Probably one of the times I look forward to most in my day apart from simply seeing my family.
As the kids got themselves showered and changed for bed, my oldest son came back to tell me about how his substitute teacher had an emotional breakdown during the class. He chuckled and acted like she was being ultra sensitive to something so small.
I let him finish telling the story and then took the time to explain that it was probably the last straw for her after weeks of dealing with various classes that had been misbehaving for weeks with this poor substitute.
He didn’t fully get what I was trying to teach him, so I stopped trying to explain it and I took time to pray with him. We prayed for his teacher as well as the students. That God would comfort her and give her strength and also that God would teach the students to respect and love everyone they come into contact with because they never know what’s happening in their lives.
When the prayer was over I explained that no one ever knows what people are going through behind closed doors and that “small thing” could truly be what brings them to their breaking point.
So many of us are going through things that no one knows about. We smile and act the part because we’re ashamed or simply want to look the part, but we’re really fighting some real battles behind the scenes.
Tonight as you check in to your nightly routine I want to speak a word of encouragement over you. Better yet, I want to remind us all of something.
As you tuck your kids in tonight to then cry as you stay up late cleaning..
As you sit up in bed with tears in your eyes or even angrily wondering what’s gone wrong in your marriage…
As you lay on your side choking down tears so your spouse doesn’t hear you cry yourself to sleep yet another night..
As you go to your hiding spot to find those pills that will help you feel numb enough to sleep through the night so you can forget about your troubles..
As you sneak that one good drink so you can look past the fact that you’re surrounded by so many, but feel so alone and unloved..
As you spend another night battling thoughts of depression, anger, suicide, and insecurity….
Know and understand this.
He sees every tear
He hears every prayer...even the silent ones
He feels every pain..you know, the ones that make you feel like your heart is going to burst out of your chest…the ones you swallow back down to avoid giving into the truth.
He’s not ignoring you, I promise. He’s molding you.
He’s not trying to make you give up, He’s strengthening you.
He’s not trying to kill you, He’s trying to birth something in you.
It’s through nights like these that God shows us what He’s placed in us.
So press through..
Cry it out..
Scream if you have to..
Write, pray, and/or listen to some worship..
Read the Word or listen to some Word on your phone..
Allow it to break you to your core so God can make you..
God sees you…He hears you….He feels every pain and hears every silent prayer through your tears…
Most of all…
Until next time,
I pray a sweet, peaceful sleep.